Adoption Journal

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

I want more kids- Now!

Today I spent the morning at Adam's pre-school. It was so great. I just love being around the children. I am so happy with them. Playing, listening, singing, running. I just want to have more. I know I have to be patient, but it is hard. I am learning not to be jealous of others who have as many children as they want. I am doing better, but I want to be doing great. I want to get my "referral". I want to take a child home. I want to take 2, but one at a time! My neighbour just told me that her sister in law is pregnant with her 3rd and 4th. Twins. Their other children are under the age of 2. It amazes me that some people can so easily have children. It is such a foreign concept for me. I wonder what I take for granted, that I should not. My wonderful husband, my wonderful son, my loving parents. I try to make sure they are all aware of how important they are to me. I hope they understand.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

My first entry

We are waiting. Our paperwork is done. It is sent to Russia, and now we are just waiting for our match. The agency thinks we will not get one until June or July, but I am secretly hoping she is wrong, and it will be in May. I want to go NOW. I hate thinking that my son is waiting somewhere, and does not have the love of his parents and his big brother. Our paperwork was sent on March 15th..... The wait is hard, but I am trying to just put it in the back of my mind. Maybe it will go faster that way, but I doubt it.